Hi, my name is Emmie. I don’t know what to do. I just feel lost. I shut out everyone who is trying to help me and it's because i don’t know what to say, I can’t be helped. It's just hard trying to talk to people when they don’t know what it’s like, and i can’t explain. People think i’m getting better. I don’t know if i’m getting better or if i’m just getting used to the misery that is my life. I used to really want to be dead. Now a part of me kind of wants to be alive. I still want to die. I just feel so lost. I miss everyone. I miss everything. I miss being happy. It’s like i’m 16 years old and my life is already over and now i’m just waiting to die. I’m just a sad lonely girl in a very fucked up world and i don’t know what to think anymore.